thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
but everythingmeans nothing.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Oh well this is my 500th posts.. Lolz.. so coincidence.. about wad? Hmmm.. I'm planning to close this blog. Yep, that's right.. closing this blog! There are no particular reasons for it just that I think I've nothing much to write anymore. But still, I'll not delete this address coz I may come back anytime to read my previous posts~ Yap.. so ppl, if u have placed my link on ur blog.. pls kindly delete away coz I won't be updating anymore. Take care everyone and thank you if there are any faithful readers out there~ See ya and lurve ya!
if i ain't got you|12:16 AM|
Monday, July 26, 2004
Lolz.. suprise of the century.. I've skipped lessons today.. and it's the second time.. But wait.. I'm toking about 2 lectures in a row! Lolz.. Well.. feeling kinda tired and I know it's hard for me to concentrate in lecture.. What for go into that "Big Theatre" if I'm not going to listen to class? I rather spend time resting at home.. to have sufficient sleep.. Wahaha.. dun ask me where I got this influence form.. Maybe from Lindy (>.<) *oPpz! kkz..
Will be kinda busy starting from this week actually.. need to submit lotsa stuff~ Next week I think there'a a presentation. I THINK?! Hahhaaz.. well but I know very well there'a a test next week. Oh gosh.. I'm getting lost touch of my school work. Alright... I think I need to get on track soon. Time to Pull Up My Socks!
if i ain't got you|8:37 PM|
Saturday, July 24, 2004
First and foremost~ I would like to say Happy Birthday to Benji!! Yea!! U are finally 19! Oh yah.. please take care of urself boy.. U have not been feeling well since the start of this Sem.. maybe even way before this sem~
Darling and I went out today.. we went to Suntec. Ate the food court there, not very nice.. then later Went to Carrefour to see see.. Hehehz.. then head home lo.. Just now when I was taking Darling home.. very funny.. suggested to take a short drive near Darling's block.. a car park where there's not many cars.. and guess wad.. Darling was the drivier! Lolz.. he did pretty well.. better than I was when I just started off in the past.
School's the same.. just that there are more work to do over the weekends.. have to start my prototype soon.. maybe tomorrow.. hope I can get it done by Monday. No Work == No Play
if i ain't got you|1:07 AM|
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Nothing much had happen to me recently.. just that I'm having low self esteem recently.. Well, I feel that I am just plain stupid. Just stupid. I dunnoe how to explain.. I became very insignificant to the ppl around me. Not that I wanna attention.. I just hope that some times ppl listen to me to what I say.. or at least let me finish talking? Ignore me and I'll ignore u. That's me. Lolz.. but doesn't matter lahz.. dun have to tok much also..
Oh yah.. about the stupidity thingie.. I dunnoe.. maybe having mental block currently.. maybe still is.
Still went to Carissa's house today.. still the same.. gave tuition.. but then this time I dunnoe.. I felt different. I dunnoe why , everytime I look at her.. I feel sad.. really. I really sympathsize her and luckily.. she still has a few of her relatives to care for her. But still, I feel kids without BOTH of their parents is really sad case.
Darling came to my house today.. it seems to be like the first day of this week. LAst sem I think he used to come to my house almost everyday after school. Because I had tuition after school and it's kinda hard for us to meet after that.. my school always ends late too. Sianz.. now projects are flooding in.. everyday will discuss some things.. hope that we (my group) will always be way before the deadline.
if i ain't got you|11:41 PM|
Monday, July 19, 2004
A whole complete family picture.. nicely placed on the big sized tv. Anyone who walked into their home.. looking at this particular picture will think that this family lives in bliss. I was one of them.. until today I realised that I was so dead wrong. I always wondered why I've not been seeing Carissa's mother and gets pretty weird when I knew that Carissa's grandmother handling her school stuff and such. I've indirectly asked Carissa before where is her mother.. and I remembered her telling me this: "Sometimes she goes to spa, sometimes she never comes home, I dunno." I dunnoe why.. I just had this feeling "not to ask anymore". Life still goes on as usual.. Go to Carissa's house twice a week. It's was a pretty hot afternon today.. both Carissa and I were restless.. And I was like anticipting the time to move faster.. but silly me.. time will not move faster or slower.. it's always been the same.. it's always been this pace.. Until then I heard a very loud knock on the door. I can say both Carissa and I were awake from the "restless-ness". I saw a middle aged lady wearing shorts..Her top? I dun really remember.. hair dyed.. a lil brown I supposed. Carissa's grandma was like so shocked and somehow talked to that lady.. and they argued.. never hear was was it... Carissa's grandma went out and asked Carissa to lock the door. I asked Carissa who was that.. she just answered "dunnoe". I tot it was really weird. So I continued with my tuition with Carissa.. then her grandma suddenly asked me if it was convenient for me to take Carissa with me to my house.. I was really shocked.. I mean really~ Then I casually asked if they know that woman.. She told me that she's Carissa's mum.. and her "up there" not right.. meaning a lil insane.. and keep saying wanna take the kids home or smthing.. I was like dumb-founded.. Well.. I think taking Carissa to my house is a safe thing to do and also the right thing to do I suppose.. And now Carissa went back to her house already and just happen when I drove her home.. her family car was in front.. and Carissa said "Eh.. my uncle driving my grandma's car." I was like in total shock again.. "I tot that was her Dad?" Oh dear.. Come to think of it..maybe both Carissa and Keanu do not have any parents... but what's with the photo? I didn't take a clear look at the photo before.. I dunno the man in the photo was her father anot.. Well.. It's just so sad.. just so tragic.. So far.... Carissa and Keanu's fate.. is worst than anyone else I know of. So young.. yet so fragile~
Things haven't gone right from last week.. Help~
if i ain't got you|6:31 PM|
Saturday, July 17, 2004
The collection of Islander's card is till 5pm.. How silly of me.. So no Sentosa trip today. So 4th time missing Merlion trip again.. I wonder wads with my "fate" with that big head Lion Plus Fish tail building. Maybe tomorrow going down... hope won't miss it this time, but still I have to miss the musical fountain. It's not that I can't wait for tomorrow... but just that I've just prepared to go out.. the feeling of getting out of the house soon.. but then.. suddenly cannot go out.. The feeling is just shit lo.. Tried playing gunbound to make myself feel better.. but I missed all my shots.. which is so terrible.. and it only made me feel worst. I quited the game after 3 rounds of games. Well, guess I have to do tutorial later on.. Tot of doing it only tomorrow. Everything just screwed up the last minute.. and it's all becoz of me.
if i ain't got you|4:46 PM|
Friday, July 16, 2004
Not feeling too well today.. Felt very cold on the outside but warm inside.. Even my son, Sean said if something had happen to me.. He said I look so.. erm.. tired.. It's not that I've not enough sleep.. I dunnoe why.. just that I really feel tired easily these few days and I am having constant headaches and stomach-aches. Had my first nap in these two weeks just now and I still feel exhausted. Just I'm gonna sleep early tonight. I hope. Things have not been going smoothly for me, what kind of things.. well.. quite a few. Dun wanna mention.
Tuition after school was really kinda tiring and my mother was worried if I could cope. I told her that I would drop if I can't, but I tok tok only arhz.. Whether I want to drop, it's a difficult decision for me, coz of one word, responsibility.
Tried to further our project idea just now.. hope those are feasible ideas.. just wanna expand as big as possible and when comes to implementation, will scope down. I juts will be making my brain work for the next 2 days, hope the other memebers are doing that too.. =)
Tomorrow will be making a trip down to Sentosa with Darling. Main purpose is to get our Islander's Card and maybe we will just walk around, hope the weather permits. I still want to go to MERLION! I've missed 3 times already.. and I dun wanna miss this time AGAIN! Yapz.. it's just so fustrating~
if i ain't got you|9:25 PM|
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Look at the time.. I've changed.. No Choice must be exact! Lolz.. why le? Coz it's our 5th Month Anniversary! Toking about me and Darling of coz.. Hehehez.. HuGZ! Still Love Ya As Ever!
School is still the same.. boring as usual.. but.. also stressful.. =)
if i ain't got you|11:30 AM|
Monday, July 12, 2004
Didn't know that giving tuition is so tiring.. well.. cannot blame.. today started class at 8.. ended at 3.. tution from 4-7.15pm.. sure tired lahz.. but I really do hope I can get used to it.. coz I still have to bear for a few months.. This semester has a couple of projects.. which means there will be more groupings.. which means equal to sianz.. I mean now we are splitted into 2 grps.. I.T track and Business track.. time table a lil different but like that also quite difficult to meet up.. and worst still.. if all of us are in different grps.. it would be hard to compromise a time to meet up also.. in case of this meeting clashes with others.. Stupid management.. say next time go out to work have to work with different pl.. but then have they tot that.. yes.. we will be working with different ppl.. but at least we are working on only 1 project.. or at most 2? But now we are toking about more than 2.. I rememebered having 5 projects.. working with so many different ppl.. until that I have to write down a piece of paper to remind myself.. waste time only.. sianz.. okie.. enough of complaining.. loLz.. Cya!
if i ain't got you|8:13 PM|
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Blah! The Ba Kua... is horrible! Tasteless and hard.. pui*~ oPPz!
if i ain't got you|4:12 PM|
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Well... I just got my new specs! Lolz.. hehehz.. kinda satisfied with it you see, gave me a pretty new look I guess.. PLastic frames are like that. =) Well.. I guessed I've finalized my tuition days.. it will be on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.. and maybe one more day on weekends (for my sista!) Yapz.. gonna be real busy.. this week's school is still alright I guess.. the work kinda light.. but I think for the rest of the semester, it's going to be hell.
Benji came down with TB.. take care alright Benji? Make sure dun go around spreading to others.. Lolz.. kidding! Need any help just come and look for any one of us okie?
Project grouping was finalized yesterday.. it went alright.. as usual.. the same old people were left out.. but surprisingly.. I saw a few unexpected ones being left out.. dunnoe why.. Too bad each group only can have 5 ppl.. Well seriously.. Rick and I didn't belong to any group initially.. don't know who to group with too, so we just wait lo.. wait for someone to approach us or smthing if we are lucky.. coz both of us are really tired of this stupid grouping thingie.. every year.. smthing new happens.. and it's always not pleasant lahz. So in the end.. Benji approached us. Yapz.. and we were in his group. Later Darling will go and have a hair-cut.. and maybe later we are heading down to my sister's school fair today.. got $50 bucks of coupons to spend! Free one.. of coz go lar... Then maybe only start working on my tutorials tomorrow bahz.
Oh yah.. I have started to begin hanging out with the guys more often after the chalet.. They are really fun to be with arhz.. real funny.. crap alot as usual.. wait.. who in our class dun crap? LOLZ.. hehe.. and I've just signed up a UOB debit card yesterday.. absolutely free.. dun have to place any deposit in.. it is vaild till we are 21. Darling signed for one too.. The cool thing is it is a VISA. Lolz.. The POSB Debit card is Masters.. Well.. I signed up fpr it becoz it's for dining purpose.. there's discouhnt for almost all my favourite hangouts.. mainly like Marche, Sakae Sushi, Breeks and Cafe Cartel! Yapz.. hehehehe. It's okie if I place zero value in that card.. lolz.. no penalty charges.. cool right? Maybe I only put in when I wanan use it.. Hehehz..
Arghz.. it's raining now I wonder how the fair goes..
if i ain't got you|11:08 AM|
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Just came back for 2 rounds of tuition.. evry tired actually.. although I only had one lecture today but I'm still tired.. Reason being becoz I've yet to take back my lost sleep for the past few nights.. either I sleep late or wake up early.. Woke up early today too.. Hahaz.. made Darling breakfast.. Lolz.. Hope that U like it Darling! Nothing much tosay.. except that I got myself a new specs! Yay.. collecting tomorrow I guess and also.. classes are still boring as usual.. Had already found my grping for this semester project. They are: Darling(needless to say), Benji, Ling Xuan and Seet Wei.. Yapz.. quite satisfied bahz.. not too bad lo.. Whether it's finalized anot I dunnoe lorz.. Wanted to get myself a H.D polo T.. but it's too ex.. not worth it I guess.. Alright then.. evry tired.. got to go.. Cya!
if i ain't got you|5:17 PM|
Monday, July 05, 2004
School starts today! Hahaz.. Before that.. I went to Carissa's house for tuition (Got my first pay! Yay!).. dunoe why.. day seems to pass so slowly.. then at about 11.. I had my first lecture. one word. BORING! Lunch went to AMK and eat with my friends.. then 2nd Lecture.. BORING again. I dunoe lahz.. sianz.. Then after that.. Classmates said wanna go KTV.. but Darling and I didn't go in the end.. coz Darling sore throat and we also dun really feel like going le.. maybe KTV is just not for us for the time-being. So in the end.. hang around in Bishan.. wanna catch a movie.. but so many ppl.. then after a while.. so tired.. then go home lo.. First day just ended like that. Nothing much lo.. everyone is still the same.. just that some of them got new clothes.. like me! Wahahaha.. Dun think I've seen any freshies today..
if i ain't got you|11:29 PM|
Sunday, July 04, 2004
I guess I am going to turn in early today.. not becoz it's school tomorrow.. but rather I am really tired and I have a tuition at 9am before setting out for school. Woke up at 10am today juts to give my sister tuition then Darling came over my house. Yupz.. he is still ultra sweet as ever.. He went to NTUC and tried to get me the "Magnolia Mango Milk" but then it was out of stock.. he also got me the SKI yogurt which I really love and also from Old Chang Kee.. he bought me "fried sotong"--> my favourite too! Thanks Darling.. I am really glad that U think of me even when I wasn't with u. =) I can say.. U really pamper me especially with FOOD. mUackz!
Darling slacked around in my house before I go meet the girls. I was kinda sleepy already. Suppose to go Bishan PArk and cycle.. in the end hte rental fee is Ex.. so we just walk around in the end.. then shortly after I went to join my mum, sis and maid for dinner.. After dinner.. I happen to come across this small stall.. selling bags, pencil boxes, pouches etc. It's so cute and sweet! Really and it's so cheap! The pencil box only cost $3.90! I am planning to get one whole set.. the pouch, pencil box and coin pouches! I think maybe tomorrow evening or Tuesday. Oh yah.. Hit my car against the pillar just now.. Heart pain~
Oh yah.. I rebonded my hair again.. this time my hair is a different parting.. I think I prefer side parting.. hehe.. like my hair style now! It's worth the money.
if i ain't got you|10:46 PM|
Saturday, July 03, 2004
I'm going to saloon today.. gulps.. dunnoe wad will I become.. Hope everything turn out well.. Thanks Darling for accompanying me.. I mean really.. coz no one accompanied me for rebonding before.. It's a long process and not everyone is willing to wait for me.. at least Darling does. That's why I chose him. =) He is special.
if i ain't got you|11:00 AM|
Friday, July 02, 2004
Yay~ I'm finally HOME! Well, I would like to summarise that the chalet was actually quite fun.. Hahahz.. All thanks to the guys.. they really "cockster".. they can crack jokes and laugh all day.. When I say all Day.. I really mean all day.. except sleeping times lo.. Every minute there will be laughter.. Boy.. it's really fun to be with them. Those who didn't go.. U really miss a great deal.. Haha.. finally came home and can eat some proper food. Past few days have been eating cup noodles, bread, food court stuff etc.. no home-cooked food, Then my stomach also suffer lo.. pain for 2 days.. but luckily Darling took care of me. Hahaz.. then the guys brought PS2 and somemore X-Box to play with.. play tennis and soccer games.. damn funny. Then we played mahjong and poker cards. On the 2nd day..we went to Wild Wild Wet. It's not as fantansic as it seems.. really and paying 12.50 bucks for it is definitely not worth it. I think there only 1 ride is fun only. Anyway.. This time really reached home early.. Luckily there's car..
Later I'll be meeting the girls for mahjong session.. then in the late morning.. go for 2 tuition.. then maybe go and do my hair..
Time table is finalized.. so tomorrow going to confirm tuition time with the kids then when school starts.. I guess I'll be really busy then.. No More slacking (yah rite..as if)! Last acedemic semester already.. so must jia you!
if i ain't got you|7:24 PM|
